Unemployed and Overwhelmed

Ugh. I don’t like the sound of that word. Unemployed. But that’s the way the cookie crumbles.

I was “laid off” on Wednesday, due to restructuring in the department. This is total bullshit. Alas, I’m no longer working for Henry’s, and like I’ve been telling people, I was shocked, but I’m not sorry. I’ve been humming and hawing over whether or not to move on from there, anyways. They made the decision for me, so really, I should thank them. I don’t really like making decisions, especially life-altering ones like whether or not to quit a job. Not only did they make the choice for me, but they gave me a shit load of money. Well, the standard shit load, but I worked there for five bloody years.

Now I have to decide what to do with myself. This is the part that freaks me out. How do I know I’m making the right decision? And if I change my mind, would that make me look like even more of a loser? Say I take a job at, oh I don’t know… Vistek. I’ve heard the employees there are none too content. So would I just be setting myself up for more hassle? Same shit, different pile? I know there will be shit in every pile.

Anyways- here are some options I have:

Three-week trip to Australia: (This one I’ll probably do.) I haven’t seen Stef in a couple months, and it seems like it’s been at least six. I miss her, I’d love to go Down Under and shoot some photographs, and I think getting away will give me a better perspective on things. The other side of the globe is pretty extreme, but I have an opportunity, and I think I should take it. (I wonder what time it is there right now… I need to call Stef!)

Get a new job somewhere in Toronto, like Vistek or Indigo: Alright, I’ll admit it. I’ve already applied for the job at Vistek. I freaked out the day of departure, and sent them my resume. Indigo- I looked for jobs on their website, but didn’t find anything applicable for me.

Apply to a newspaper in some remote community: This has always been a dream of mine. To go off to a place like Sioux Lookout in northern Ontario and be a reporter/photographer. And there’s an opportunity right now, however, this is not something I planned to do on my own. This is for when I have a partner/husband willing to re-locate, so I don’t get lonely!

Move back to Windsor, and try to get a job/s there: This has been in the back of my mind for a few months now. I’m thinking the time is right to move out of Toronto, and for some reason, Windsor feels like a good direction. I don’t know if I feel this way because Windsor is safe (in my mind, anyways- but I know it’ll be difficult to get a job there), or if it really is the best move for me to make. This is what I struggle with. (The other issue with moving to Windsor is the fact that I’ll need to get a car. This is not something I’m totally against, but it’s another expense, making life in Windsor with a car, comparable to life in Toronto, without.) BUT- my family and my friends are there. So, this option is a really good contender.

Go back to school: I think the government would help me pay for this, if I were to choose to study something else in school. The only thing I could think of would be something like the Outdoor Education course at Humber (or something similar). But I have no idea what kind of a job I’d be able to get with a diploma from this program.

Concentrate 100% on my photography, and maybe work my way in to an assisting job: This could happen anywhere really, but I don’t know if assisting would be enough to support me on it’s own. I think I would have to find something to supplement this… I also always said I’d have a photo exhibit here in Toronto before I left the city. Well, it’s crunch time. I’m not sure if that’s going to be possible. Although, the Lens Factory is accepting proposals for March ($450 for the space, plus framing costs and advertising- this seems doable to me now). What would I show, though? I need a theme. Any theme. More to think about. But I think I should seriously consider this. I have the time to do the work involved, and the money to front. We’ll see…

I have re-vamped my website though- check it out: http://www.karigignac.com/

Tell me what you think. About everything. I’m trying to gather wisdom so I can make the right decision.

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2 thoughts on “Unemployed and Overwhelmed

  1. That sucks, but enjoy your new found freedom.Pull a ‘George’ and do the opposite of what you would normally do – you might be pleasantly surprised.Also, don’t worry about doing nothing – if you do, you’ll be busier than you’ve ever been!Good luck!

  2. Sorry to hear the news Kari, but you sound positive and have the right idea. If you were thinking about it before, it’s probably meant to be.

    I checked out your pics on your website – great photos! Just a suggestion, but if you did a show, you could show some of your food/drink shots and have the show around the same time as one of the food and/or drink shows that happen in the City. Could perhaps get free advertising as part of the “city events” that weekend. If all went really well, perhaps you would even garner some interest from food industry to shoot for them as well! Great pics though – I like how you capture “life” in your photos.

    – Brandi

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